Dear Sidhartha Gothama

May 6, 2009

The world is getting ready once again to celebrate your birth, enlightenment and passing away.

After 2500 years, the words you uttered have become a religion. Humans divided by race and culture claim it to be theirs, and have built identities around it. Fairy tales have been written, bloody wars have been fought, civilizations have been seduced and conquered, men have turned into demons, and worst of all- you are being worshiped as a God. Even the tree you sat beside is being treated like a sub-divinity.

Did you know this would happen? Did you have a choice? Perhaps more importantly, do I have a choice?

One more thing, after achieving Enlightenment, why didn’t you go back to Yashodara and Rahula? It’s paradoxical you see, if you really attained enlightenment, how come you had a sense of purpose and a ego to call yourself a Buddha?

You said that the only constant in the world is change. If so, how did you conquer your desires? How did you cultivate a mind which is not subjected to change?

Tell me are you for real? Is enlightment for real?

You’re a great poet, and an old-soul, I’ll give you that. But the decisions you’ve made, and the life you lived are clear signs that we mortals can never live in reality and attain enlightment at the same time.

Yours without faith,



11 Responses to “Dear Sidhartha Gothama”

  1. Dee Says:

    good post. questioning is cool… hmm…here’s what I think..

    I’m assuming Enlightenment is a state of being where you don’t feel or are bound down by emotions. So would there be a point of going back to a lay life, when you really can’t give what is expected to a wife and son?

    In the ego bit…I’m assuming he wasn’t a blowhard, after all, we have to take into account that half the stuff were written after his passing away by others.…calling himself the Buddha would probably have been to establish himself as a leader. Maybe human nature makes it hard for a person to really listen and look up to a person who is doesn’t establish himself?

    I’m also assuming that once a mind is developed it’s rock hard. Change maybe relevant to the state of the world. Matter and evolution…stuff like that?

    I have some questions too…like leaving yashodara and keeping her in grief…taking rahula and nanda without permission…taking time to establish a mehenin shasana even after repeated requests from prajapathi. Why it’s ok to take in really young priests when they clearly have no idea what the Dhamma is. I rather prefer people joining the shasana out of real understanding…

    Hm… but then again, I suppose what matters is the dhamma by itself. What is teaches and the psychological aspects of it.

    oh afterthought…i went for a sermon of this famous aussie priest, who said there was a person in aussie who was so deeply into meditating that he went into a state of unconsciousness and his wife had freaked out. They had thought it was a coma but after a few days he had woken up and said that he was having an out of body experience. So I guess a lay person can develop his mind and achieve certain states of mindfulness? :S

    • Me Says:

      Leaving Yashodara was done before he attained enlightenment. The reason for Nanda and Rahula may have been that he saw something in them, rather than it being an emotional decision. The mehini sasna also can be justified upon cultural reasons.

      But there is a stronger underlying dilemma that surpasses all these things. The Buddha had a purpose in life. Period. More provocatively speaking, he had a desire to help others. A driving force that led him to build a religion around him.

      How can an enlightened soul be that naive?

  2. well Says:

    the hypocrisy of the buddhist just winds me up some time. but then i realize that theyre blatant stupidity and feel happy again. i feel kinda pissed off again when i realize that the next generations are sooo fucked cause theses mutha fuckers are such racist bastards. if only mr B was here to bitch slap everyone of these uneducated dimwits. today must be my hate mail day

  3. Says:

    @well: oi, who are you calling mutha fuckers ah? :@

  4. Says:

    and btw, I disagree with this post! as Dee said, questioning is cool, but I sense real underlying venom in your post… I dunno man, it’s not cool to hate us just because we follow him, you know? I mean you being an Atheist (or whatever you are) is cool, but I dunno, I’m a bit confused as to what you are meaning to say in this post…

    • Me Says:

      You have the right disagree. But the venom you see is a reflection of your self. Clear your mind, and perhaps you will understand the questions that I’m bringing up.

  5. […] and in doing so, I am also trying to practice in whatever way I can. There is a comment on this post which says that the post is offensive to Buddhists and is written by an Atheist, who wouldn’t […]

  6. Dee Says:

    Perhaps the word “desire” is what is confusing. Maybe it’s the difference between desire for materialism/ emotional attachments Vs ‘desire’ or wanting to make a difference out of compassion?

  7. Dee Says:

    cont – for example, craving for love and losing it makes us suffer and bitter, but a desire for universal compassion and charity would make a person’s life more fulfilling.

    it’s just that the english term “Desire” is a bit tricky.

    • Me Says:

      Good point. In classical theravada buddhism, compassion is a big deal. And desire is only attributed to the bad stuff.

      Other forms of buddhism are not so conventional. In variations like Dzogchen, there is no such division as good and evil. Every fleeting thought, whether it be filled with compassion or clenched with rage, are both the same – a barrier to enlightenment.

      Meditation is used to silence both these beasts, without reserving any prejudgment.

  8. Baby Z Says:

    I think religion as a whole is shit. Just look at the Pope, he rides around in a Beemer, throws rediculously expensive parties, and goes on lavish vacations while there are kids in Africa who are starving to death.

    I personally believe that humans were created by aliens called Annunaki thousands of years ago and were enslaved by them. There is no heaven or hell. When you die you become a molecule, you return to the earth and that’s it. Some say the Annunaki will return in the year 2012. Radical? Maybe, but it is possible when you consider that statistically we can’t possibly be alone in this universe. I’ve blogged about this topic in detail, but you can Google it if you want to know more.

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